Jehovah-Jireh: the Lord will provide.

Today I was talking to a friend and she was telling me that she has been challenged to focus the Lord’s provision, to truly recognize and consider all that the Lord provides for us. So this got me thinking about my life and the unfolding of events that have taken place in the past week.

Graduating from college is unlike any other time. My whole life I have known or at least had an idea of what was coming next, whether that was elementary school, middle school, or high school. There was always a next step. Then you graduate college and suddenly there is a whole world full of possibilities. For months I had been praying for the Lord to open up job opportunities and for His will to be done in my life, and for months I felt stuck. I knew I wanted to be in Johnson City and be a labor and delivery nurse. That is all I knew for sure, yet nothing was falling into place. But why? Surely if I wanted to stay in JC then I would find the job I wanted, right? A good while back I remember specifically surrendering my life to the Lord, in the fact of, wherever He wants me to go, I’ll go. Whether that looks like missions in another country or right here where I am. But doesn’t that look like stepping outside my comfort zone and the plans I thought I had for my life and TRUSTING in the Lord’s sovereign will for my life?

This week my life has changed in some of the best and worst ways possible. Over the past couple weeks a seed has been planted in my heart about possibly applying to jobs in Knoxville. I have literally felt the Lord preparing my heart to leave Johnson City. So Tuesday I decided to go job searching online. That night I applied to a L&D nursing position. Wednesday morning I got a call for an interview, and Thursday I went for a job interview and got offered the job. WOW!!!! I am still processing that I am moving to Knoxville, and going to be starting my DREAM JOB!! Big big praise. But a couple weeks ago I would not have been ready to move. What a sweet sight to see the Lord’s hand in your own life working it all together in HIS perfect timing.

On the same day I got the news of my job, my family also got some of the worst news we could have dreamed of. However, through this hard season I have also seen the Lord provide. I actually will not start my job until the beginning of August so I have sweet, precious time that I will get to spend with my family. Time I would not have gotten if I would have had to start my job sooner. Time that I would have never gotten back. I have also seen my family come together to love each other and be here for each other. It truly has been a beautiful thing to watch. Forever grateful for the family I have been given and the love we have for each other.

I say this to say that the Lord’s provision prevails in the best and worst times in our lives. Even as I am going through both at the same time, it is so evident He provides for us. He loves us perfectly. It has been a sweet reality for me and I have come to fall in love with Who God is all over again. So I want to challenge you to 1. hug your loved ones real tight for me and 2. try to see God’s provision in your life and fall in love with Him all over again.

Please keep my family in your prayers.

“Let us with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16


a firm belief in the character, strength, or truth of someone or something

Trust. What a complex, yet so very simple word. This is something that I am struggling to do in my life at this moment, and I think, as believers, it is just as important to share our sin and struggles as it is to share our victories. A friend reminded me yesterday that we need to be confessional, and although this seems a very simple statement, we tend to be prideful people. We don’t want others to see our weaknesses. So I thought I would share mine.

I graduate college in three weeks. Three weeks to figure out everything… or so it seems. I think there is so much pressure that I like to place on myself. I like to have all the control. I like to have plans and know what is coming next, but I don’t. And in the midst of wanting to know NOW, I have become almost bitter that I don’t know or have the answers. In reality though, having all the answers is the exact opposite of what I actually need. But even knowing that, I am having the hardest time trusting in the Lord and His plan for my life during this season.

Today I started playing a song and these were the first couple verses:

There is strength within the sorrow
There is beauty in our tears

And you meet us in our mourning
With a love that cast out fear

You are working in our waiting
You're sanctifying us

When beyond our understanding
You're teaching us to trust

Your plans are still to prosper
You have not forgotten us
You're with us in the fire and the flood

You're faithful forever
Perfect in love
You are sovereign over us.

And I just kept listening to those words over and over. What a sweet reminder I needed today. This time of waiting for me, and maybe even for you is not being wasted. Although our thoughts and feelings may be changing every day, God is never-changing. He is constant, perfect, faithful, working in our waiting and sanctifying us through it. I can’t even really explain the peace I get from knowing that. I am grateful that I don’t control my life because, let’s be honest, if I did I would be so lost. Instead, my life is placed in the hands of a perfect and trustworthy King. Friends, we can rest in that no matter what stage of unknown we are in.

“But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me” 2 Corinthians 12:9

Jesus is better.

As I am sitting here scrolling through Facebook, I am catching myself comparing my life to others. I’m looking at the place someone else is in and thinking I should be there too. It really does steal joy. I know it is so easy to measure our lives up with others. “They have that, and I don’t. Maybe if I had that too I could be happy.” “I wish I looked like her.” And one that I often wonder, “They are my age and they are already married. What am I doing???” It is so easy to let these things creep into your mind. The world we live in says yes! You should compare yourself to that girl. You should look a certain way, talk a certain way, and act a certain way. You should look like the world. Sex before marriage is okay. It will fulfill you. It is okay to drink that pain away. It will help you get through life. But friends, Jesus says no! You should not compare yourself because you are “fearfully and wonderfully made.” (Psalm 139:14) You should not look like the world! Instead, Matthew 16:24 says, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.” You see, denying ourselves looks a lot like denying this world and our fleshly desires. This can be hard. We are sinful people living in a sinful world, but none of it leaves us satisfied. All the comparison and all of our fleshly desires leave us empty and broken. You could get every worldly thing you have ever wanted, and I am here to tell you that you will still be left wanting more.


One of my favorite ever passages is Ephesians 2:1-10…

“And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience– among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. BUT GOD, being rich in mercy because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ–by grace you have been saved– and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not as a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.”

WOAHHHHH, if that does not get you pumped up I have no clue what will!!! We are His workmanship! He loved US even when we were dead in our trespasses. We have been saved by His grace. This is NOT our own doing, but a GIFT. Dude, I am legit hyped typing this out. It makes me feel like I can do anything being loved like that. My point I am getting to is Jesus is better. He is better than that comparison that keeps bringing you down, better than that anxiety that keeps putting those “what ifs?” in your mind, better than that broken heart you have from a lost relationship, better than that bad grade you got on that exam, better than that addiction….JESUS is BETTER. Not to mention He will keep you fulfilled and only wanting more of Him and His goodness!!! Wherever you are at in life, the Lord has you where you are supposed to be. Just as He has that other girl or guy, that you are comparing yourself to, right where they are supposed to be. Everything is made perfect in His timing. So choose Jesus. Nothing in this world can ever satisfy your soul like He can.

Hello World

Hey y’all,

I realize I haven’t kept this page up to date much, but my trip that I was supposed to take to Haiti in January got cancelled due to problems going on there. Lately, more than normal, Haiti has been a place in need of our prayer. With riots against the government, and a lot of other things going on, Haiti has been a dangerous place. Knowing this, we decided to postpone this trip until everything has calmed down. My hope is that we can still get a trip going this year, but as of right now the missionaries that live in Haiti still have not been back since it got so bad. So basically we are just kind of waiting for everything to calm down. Lord willing, we will get to take a trip this year. I just ask that you all keep Haiti and it’s people in your prayers.

My goal is to go spend a summer there within the next couple years. I love this place with my whole heart and I cannot wait to serve those amazing people with my nursing degree. Only three more semesters!!!

On another note, I think I might use this page for more than just Haiti. Obviously that will be a huge part of it, but I love writing and I enjoy this. So, throughout school (if I have time) I might come on here and just talk about school, how the Lord is working in my life at the moment or MISSIONS ❤ Anything!! SO come on and follow my page so you can follow along with me:)

A little bit about my journey

When I was around 15 years old, I went on my first mission trip to Jacmel, Haiti with my church. While we were there, we were able to help build another orphanage behind the one they already had for the older children, we got to spend time with the kids (my favorite part), and we got to enjoy a little bit of the Haitian culture. Little did I know that the Lord would give me a heart for Haiti and it’s people during this trip. Over the years, I continued to have a heart for Haiti and knew I wanted to go back. I had no clue when I would be able, but it was always on my heart.

When I started college, my first day of classes I met one of my best friends. Very quickly we realized that we both had a heart for Haiti. I thought this was so crazy. I was amazed at how sovereign the Lord was over my life, giving me a best friend that has the same passion. Fast forward to last year when Ellie asked me if I wanted to go to Haiti with her church. Of course I was not going to pass that up. So we had our trip planned for July of 2018 (when I was still a dental hygiene major), but riots had broken out in Haiti and travel was banned. I was so disappointed we had to reschedule. Little did I know the Lord was preparing me for the trip that was rescheduled for December 2018. So I am going to go into a little side story because it allows you to see just how faithful of a God we serve.

Let’s rewind to when I was in high school. For the longest time I knew I wanted to work in the health care field and use my degree for missions. So naturally I decided I wanted to be a nurse. My senior year of high school, I watched as my mamaw passed away and I just kept re-thinking my decision to be a nurse. So that week I decided that I was going to pursue Dental Hygiene as a career. The first couple years in school when people asked me what I was in school for I would always say, “Dental hygiene, but for some reason I just don’t think that is what I will end up doing.” I said that ALL the time, but I still continued on in school because I was already done with my prerequisites and ready to apply. My spring semester of my sophomore year I applied for dental hygiene school even though I knew it just wasn’t what I was going to do. Well I didn’t get in, but it didn’t make sense because my grades and GPA were great, and my interview went so well. Can I just say how thankful I am for the Lord? He is in control, and His plans for my life have been so much greater than I could’ve ever imagined. So after not getting into the program it was really hard for me. It didn’t make sense, everything went well, and I had no clue where to go from there. Well at this time, I finally let the idea of being a nurse, that has lingered all these years, back in. At this point I was trying to decide should I apply again for dental hygiene or switch to nursing. I just continued to pray “Lord, lead me to whatever is going to bring you the most glory.” That is all I want for my life, to have a career that ultimately brings God the most glory. So I decided to just apply to nursing. I knew that if nursing school was where the Lord wanted me to be then He would open that door for me. Boy am I thankful that He did just that. I got accepted to nursing school and was ready to start Spring 2019.

Okay now after that huge side note, let’s go back to my trip in December. When I say this trip changed so much for me, it is an understatement. On this trip we went to Hope Rising in Léogâne. We were there doing medical missions. Inside of the compound, they had just built a clinic for people of the community. We worked in this clinic for most of our time there. We had a Physicians Assistant with us that was seeing patients. Then they would go into a room to get fit for glasses if they needed any. After that they would go to our evangelism room where we would pray for them and tell them about the gospel. We also had a pharmacist with us, and the patients that needed them were able to receive some medicine. I got to stay with the Dr. and be his “nurse” for the week. Being able to see first hand the need for medical care and being able to provide that, even just for that short time, was more than enough to show me that I don’t want to just stay for a week and then go home. I want to be able to use my nursing degree to help these people, to love these people, and to bring God the glory.

I will end with this. As Ellie and I were walking back to our place in Haiti she said, “Isn’t it funny how back in July when we were supposed to come you were still a dental hygiene major, and now (December) you are about to start nursing school, and this trip means so much more to you now than it would have then.” I was just in awe of how good our God is. She was absolutely right. This trip solidified that I am supposed to be in nursing, that I want to use that for medical missions, and that I am right where the Lord wants me to be.

I tell you all of this because I want you all to be apart of this journey I am on. In January, my aunt and I are going back to Haiti to serve for eight days with a team. I am looking for support, whether financially or through prayer, for this upcoming trip. I will use this website to keep you all updated. If you would like to donate, you will be able to do it through this site. Thank you all in advance for your prayers and support.

Love, Madison