TRUST

a firm belief in the character, strength, or truth of someone or something

Trust. What a complex, yet so very simple word. This is something that I am struggling to do in my life at this moment, and I think, as believers, it is just as important to share our sin and struggles as it is to share our victories. A friend reminded me yesterday that we need to be confessional, and although this seems a very simple statement, we tend to be prideful people. We don’t want others to see our weaknesses. So I thought I would share mine.

I graduate college in three weeks. Three weeks to figure out everything… or so it seems. I think there is so much pressure that I like to place on myself. I like to have all the control. I like to have plans and know what is coming next, but I don’t. And in the midst of wanting to know NOW, I have become almost bitter that I don’t know or have the answers. In reality though, having all the answers is the exact opposite of what I actually need. But even knowing that, I am having the hardest time trusting in the Lord and His plan for my life during this season.

Today I started playing a song and these were the first couple verses:

There is strength within the sorrow
There is beauty in our tears

And you meet us in our mourning
With a love that cast out fear

You are working in our waiting
You're sanctifying us

When beyond our understanding
You're teaching us to trust

Your plans are still to prosper
You have not forgotten us
You're with us in the fire and the flood

You're faithful forever
Perfect in love
You are sovereign over us.

And I just kept listening to those words over and over. What a sweet reminder I needed today. This time of waiting for me, and maybe even for you is not being wasted. Although our thoughts and feelings may be changing every day, God is never-changing. He is constant, perfect, faithful, working in our waiting and sanctifying us through it. I can’t even really explain the peace I get from knowing that. I am grateful that I don’t control my life because, let’s be honest, if I did I would be so lost. Instead, my life is placed in the hands of a perfect and trustworthy King. Friends, we can rest in that no matter what stage of unknown we are in.

“But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me” 2 Corinthians 12:9